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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 01:11

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She wouldn,t have been !

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We all went to grammer schools

I was 9 years of age.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was seconnd youngest,

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

What did i know ?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

How do you know if your husband loves you truly and deeply?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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I have no regrets .

I don,t even have a pension.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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Im dying but, im not bitter.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I said to her

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

All the time i was locked up.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I couldn’t, believe it.

So whats the point in blame.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My family never makes their pension either.

She married twice! .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But it wasn’t much.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I never cut or harmed myself..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Who then, do I blame.?

One cannot live in the past .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She found it foreign!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She was in good health!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But, we were locked up after school.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My life is so biszare .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Comes on , in middle age.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I waited trembling.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im still living with it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So, i spoilt her more .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He knew the spot.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Ive learnt so much.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

It was going to be , some day.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I write beautiful poetry .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But ive been too sick for many years..

This is soul school!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We were not on the streets..

When she asked me how she looked .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She loved him until the end.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was very sick at this time too.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I was scared of men, in general

I think the readers, may guess!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I will be 64.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Put me off passion for life!!

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And i lived it daily.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.